Yes...the "if only, if only..." Nicely done.

"If only i wasn't turned down so much.
if the only way to get a girl, who's a lush." - I don't really understand this line...it's like an unfinished thought...I'm a bit confused :s

"If only i could find a nice woman
If only i could someone near to me" - um...I think you left out a word...I think it'd make more sense if it said something like:

"if only I could [find] someone near to me" or "If only i could...someone near to me..."
(And you will, you will)

I love the beginning and end...the middle is a little shaky for me...

xxx

that was a really good poem
keep writeing plz come look at mine