The me no one knows

I feel so horrible deep down,
no one cares,
no one knows,
that i hate myself and life.

i act like happy person,
but have a deep sad look in my eyes,
i laugh,i joke around,
everyone loves me but myself.

no one knows i cry all night,
i ask God to help me,
why im this way i do not know,
i do not know myself i wish i did,

i hide from everyone,
knowing they would laugh,
at how weird i am,
i feel ugly inside though pplz say im pretty.

i need help,
i just want to die,
i always ask God...
take me now!