Drinking again

She stopped drinking for about a year, and I actually believed that she wasn't going to go back to drinking. That was my mistake because she's drinking again. She's starting to get drunk more, and I'm starting to get scared. I keep asking myself what if she hurts me? I should have known she would start drinking again. Mom's mean when she's drunk she used to hurt me with her words, and fists when she was drunk. Now she's drinking again, and this time I might end up dead all because mom started drinking again.