For Charlie

As I pick up this pen
I reflect on my life
As I stare at this paper
I wonder what to write
To everyone I ever loved
I don't know how to explain
To justify my actions
that caused all of this pain
Words can't explain how I feel inside
Every waking thought is wanting suicide
I never meant to hurt you
or leave you all this way
I'm sorry I have to go
Even though you want me to stay
Live your life to the fullest
And conquer all your dreams
Live not through your fears
but in remembrance of me

This is for Charlie my friend who took his own life but left us all a letter explaining to us why. As I wrote I focused not on my rhymimg schemes but on the point charlie couldn't live in this world but he stressed that he wanted me to keep going and how sorry he was. It's sad -I thought I was there but I thought wrong!