Sometimes I wonder why I am the way I am
I try to change, I really do
But for some reason I can’t…not for you
My worst fears are simple
They over define me
I lose all my strength, when I lose my sanity
I cry alone in the dark
I speak all alone
I can’t find myself in this empty home
Surrounded by strangers
Who I know so well
Will they ever know me?
Only time can tell
I found someone who cared
A love so pure and tame
But now I lay my head down in ashes and in shame
I don’t know why I left you
I don’t know why you care
I don’t know why when no one is around you’re always there
I don’t know why I cry
I don’t know who I am
I don’t know if I can spend one more night alone
Sometimes I get tired
Sometimes I get weak
Sometimes I get dark and my mind bleak
I’m lost and confused
Bleeding and bruised
I change day to day
I cry night by night
I wont let go of what I have without a fight
I burn like a candle hidden on the mantle
Hold me when I’m asleep, so gentle and so fragile
When it’s raining, kiss me harder
When I’m screaming, hold me closer
Sometimes I’m miserable and pitiful
Sometimes I’m crazy and beautiful
But I’m just me
And just when you ask me if my real feelings are for show
Don’t. Because I don’t know.
