Mommy Dearest

My long, dark hair
just like hers
the woman you despised.
When you look at me,
you only see her,
even when you're looking into the tears in my eyes.

You hated me
because to you i was her,
taking what you'd always needed.
i guess getting what you wanted wasn't enough,
and so the abuse proceeded.

You'd hit me and beat me,
till i was lying on the floor,
Praying to God you wouldn't take my life.
Only safe when he stepped through the door...

I blamed him for not knowing,
for not seeing past your lies,
but once he finally knew,
he pitied you and the tears in your eyes.

But now Ive changed mommy,
i don't look like her no more.
but memories still haunt me,
with my bruises and my sores.

I hate you for hating me,
and taking My childish dreams,
smashing them with fists and words,
forgiveness is all id given it seems.

All i really wanted was for you to love me like you loved them,
I guess the truth always unfolds,
cuz this game is about to end...