Losing You

I can't wish away the pain
Or even make it go away
I toss and turn in my bed
No, I'm not going to be okay

I said I'd die without you
Now, I hope to find a loophole
Because I've hurt myself too many times
To furthermore damage my soul

I can't find any peace
Even in my dreams
And the only thing I'm hungry for
Is taken away it seems

At times I'm left to wonder
"Was he ever worth my pain?"
The answer seems to be lost
So I take a walk in the rain

It's midnight where I'm at
And the rain has no end
I drop myself on the road;
Oh, the pain you can't comprehend

I have every right
To be doing what I do
Because just like in my poem
I said I'd die without you

For some reason, though
The blood wont seem to run
And I'm wasting my body away;
Everything is coming undone

I don't know if I can love again
My composure has been blown
I hate myself for losing you,
When for years I've been alone.

Please, just end my pain
It's burning far too deep
End the life and pain ahead of me
So I can finally get some sleep.