Death of your love

The time for my end is come
my reasons understood by only some
to whom I took the time to explain
of my fearful memories and of my pain
they are the few that tried to help
me to cope with the pain i felt
i could not ask for better friends
but all they did was delay my end
they helped to hide my pain from the world outside
until I found out you weren't just mine
you had another she was hidden from me
you made sure that i couldn't see
but now that i know I'm questioning my worth
and once again I'm drowning in my hurt
cant you see what you're putting me through
now we'll see what I meant to you
when I'm gone ill be watching you
to see if I can hurt you too
you've created such a mess
i was wanting to live less and less
then you went and put her first
of the things you did that was the worst
you told me you were sick
I cant believe your such a prick
i went to see you it was you lawn I stood on
when your mother told me you had gone
out with her on a date
I filled with anger and hate
I went to the restaurant we used to go to
and there you were the two of you
with such a passion your lips I did miss
as you Leant forward and gave her a kiss
now Ive done something to end this strife
all I had to do , was end my life

its not very good I wrote it a year ago as a suicide note I tried to kill myself through cutting in my room but i didn't lock the door and my fiend Carly found me and called her mom to take me to the hospital I hit main arteries on both arms I was in the hospital for just Ive 1 week