Have you ever been loved?
cared about?
wanted?
Have you ever thought love was
undecidable?
unbearable?
Have you ever been pushed to the thought of
suicide?
letting go?
leaving your past and all its presence?
leaving the place that caused you the pain
the grief?
Have you ever put the substance to your head
hoping?
wishing?
praying?
for the strength to push
your life away
with just that single pull?
To leave this love that once completed you
made you whole?
Have you ever been let down?
forgotten?
ashamed?
of all humanity
killing
starving
lying
Have you ever wondered what
life after death is?
a castrating pain?
Has anyone ever told you
i love you
just once for you to know
forever
and always
Have you ever once thought of
people
on the inside?
Have you ever felt the cold chill
wind?
calling you
telling you
death is the way
Have you felt the cold blade against your
wrist?
cutting
burning
bleeding
Have you ever felt gone?
worthless
cold
You are staring the eyes of death
lying
crying
it will never let you go
grasping
struggling
silence.
By Brandi Jean
