The suicide letter

I cant do anything right
and yet more than once have you been there only to ignite
you went inside my soul and ignited my fire
now I'm more on fire than the computer wire
i tried as hard as i could but i guess it wasn't enough
man i am so fed up with all of yawl's stuff
too bad I'm not as good as your son
it's a shame that I'm standing in your way of the perfect one
i am sorry i have screwed up your perfect life
i wish i could get rid of this feeling and get rid of this strife
I'm sorry I'm a disappointment to all of you
and this time i have thought it all the way through
I'm not included in this family anymore
i have tried to discuss my feelings with you but there's something blocking us... like a door
y'all don't care about me anyway
my body would just lay and decay and become affray
you know it's sad how in the past 3 years we have become perfect strangers
if i stay here any longer our lived would be filled with horrible dangers
so I'll go and let y'all be a family
because i care no more indefinitely
every night i lay there and cry
i think i have the right to die
so as i lay here in a pool of blood
don't do as i did and let your feelings come aflood
don't think about picking up my knife
and thinking that you have a tragic life
because you don't and you know it's true
remember as you used to always say" do as i say not as i do"
what am i thinking you don't care
without me here your life would be the perfect affair
i know what everyone's thinking"god how can she be so selfish?"
but I'm sorry my life wasn't served to me on a fancy dish
i know i shouldn't care what everyone else thinks
but what y'all say to me really make my heart sink
well I'm going to end this suicide letter now
so you'll quit raising your brow
and quit
and quit asking why?
because you know that tomorrow at my funeral you aren't going to even cry!