This pain – 23/06/2005

You hurt me so much,
And you still want to help,
You still want to be friends,
Do you really want to hear me yelp?

Don’t you care,
That you hurt me?
Are you that blind,
To realize that I’m in pain cant you see?

The thirty new marks on my arms,
Are named after you,
For the pain and misery,
That you have given me to make me blue.

There’s nothing you can do,
As much as you think,
Maybe give me time,
To bleed more in the sink.

My head and heart,
Need time to get over,
The pain you caused me,
Maybe the sweet clover.

Neither of us are making it better,
By hurting each other,
Saying mean harsh things,
We need to stop running for cover.

I don’t know if I ever want to be friends,
But I guess it will make him joyful,
Then it will start again,
So back to the normal would be beautiful.

How am I supposed to feel?
How do I tell you,
How you’re supposed to feel?
When all I can do it hate and feel blue?

Did you only go out with me,
To get close to her?
What exactly was I to you?
My pain has made everything we did a blur.

So I have a question or two,
How long will you make me feel like this?
The misery the hurt the blame?
And will you remember our first kiss?

You changed your mind quickly
And that is what hurt,
Did you forget that I could feel?
Will you ever treat her like dirt?

Please don’t say understand,
On how I feel,
If hurts me even more,
So over the holidays at least let me deal.

Did you forget to ask?
If I was really over you?
Or did you just want to hurt me?
I’m in pain but then there’s nothing new.

How long will my heart cry for?
How long will I have this pain?
How long will my eyes shed tears?
How long will it take for my tears to go down the drain?

Dedicated to Michael S.