Give a Damn

Tomorrow is so close,
Yet still it never arrives,
You sit and wait for hours,
But when you grow near it hides,

I'm sitting here in my chair,
Daydreaming of tomorrow,
Being in your arms for hours,
Your voice washing over my sorrow,

Today is passing so slowly,
23 hours still to go,
Before I'm in your embrace,
With a reality to hold,

All I can talk about is you,
Annoying my friends to no end,
Whether I'm happy or sad,
Wishing I was with you once again,

Imagining your smile,
The look in your eyes,
From the beginning,
The excitement inside you couldn't disguise,

Remembering the happy times,
The laughing, having fun,
Trusting you loved me,
Way back when we first begun,

Picturing the first day,
The moment I let you in,
The moment I opened my heart to you,
Vunerable to hurt within,

I didn't expect this loneliness,
Nor did I plan on the tears,
But I guess it's what I get,
After making you wait for years,

Maybe I was better as an imagination,
Or you just enjoyed the chase,
Now that you have me completely,
I'm not even sure if that's the case,

If you had me completely,
Maybe I'd feel like I was held tight,
Instead of this constant struggle,
Unable to sleep each night,

I've given all I have,
Yet I'm still floating in the air,
Feelings all over the place,
I just need to know you care,

I'm sorry if you've grown bored,
I guess I'm not good enough,
But someday, somehow,
Maybe I'll be good enough to be loved,

I miss the phone calls every night,
The random texts saying I was on your mind,
I miss the invites to see you,
I guess you left all that behind,

Not me though, I still remember,
I think of how we use to be,
I have so many memories,
Memories of you and me,

Now I feel alone in the world,
All the memories I now make are solo,
I've fought so hard for the old times,
But you seem to like this flow,

I want my boyfriend back,
The one that gave a damn,
I want the relationship I know we can have,
I want a future with my man!