Do You Ever

Do you ever feel like you run a race so hard but to always come short of the finish line?
Or do you ever feel like your so close to something that you could just reach out and grab it but to find that its just really far away?
Have you ever found yourself to take one giant step towards something, hoping and praying that it will turn out the way you want it to put to only find all the hoping and praying was a waste because all that you had hoped and prayed for was a complete disappointment?
Or have you ever found yourself to go so far out of your comfort zone to only find the one thing comforting you has abandoned you?
Well... I have and let me tell you it absolutely sucks.
I get so tired of being strong and not showing any emotions.
I get so tired of putting all my energy into something to only find the only energy that is given back is a slap in the face.
I want to cry so bad but I know I can't because I have to be strong for me.
I want to yell and scream at the top of my lungs but I know I can't because I have to be strong for me.
I want to take out all my anger on something but I know I can't because I have to be strong for me.
Theres so many thoughts running through my mind.
Theres so many emotions running through my veins.
Why can't I just let them all out, I know I'll feel much more complete.
Because, being complete isn't the answer its about being strong.
And that's what I have to be.
To be strong for me, yes thats what I have to be.