Another Night Full Of Scars And Tears

Feeling the satisfaction
As I press the shiny blade against my skin
Hoping this will be the last time
And praying that these cuts and blood will get rid of this pain within.

Feeling the lonely tears
As they slowly make their way down my face
Not caring whether they fall to the floor
Just searching for that much needed warm embrace.

Feeling only loneliness
As my searching only leads to cold air
And watching as the blood slowly runs
As the blade leaves on my pale skin, only tears.

Feeling the blade go in deeper
Each and every time the pain within returns
But I only wonder one thing
When will happiness finally give me a turn.

Feeling happiness instead of grief
Would be the best of all
But without my lonely blade
I’m just afraid I’ll fall.

Feeling all this pain
Has taught me just one thing
That as the blood seeps
The only thing left of my pain are my scars that I keep.

But as I stop cutting
The pain slowly ends
But when my pain does return
I find my shiny blade becoming my friend

~Madison Leigh~ March 19th 2005