I love you and goodbye

I am sorry for those who need me
but i cannot take this anymore...
my hands are trembling, my heart beats fast
and my blood is falling to the floor

I lost my Dad
my mom, she drinks
she walks in the room
and my heart always sinks

Tears are stained to my face
and my scars are here to show
you look at my wrist and all you will see
is hidden memories you will never know

I still love him-->>> Cody (my X bf)
He just doesn't understand
I love the way he made me smile
the way he would grab my hand

I am done putting on this show
and acting like everything is okay
I am done, its through, its over...
I am leaving today.

I have tried my best to hold on
but this is the end
so here is my goodbye
to all my family and friends

I love you all so much
even if you hurt me inside
because i know you would not have acted this way
if you knew i would have died

For those of you who knew my secret
that cutting was a habit of mine
Thanks for being there when i needed it
and i am sorry but this is my time

And mom...I think this will shock
you most of all
but the truth is YOU did it
YOU made me fall

I could not hold onto a life
with a mom who drank alot
who went out with another man after her husband died
thinking she wouldn't get caught

A mom who threw things and hit
her kids when she was mad
who treated her kids like sh*t
even when they were sad

I could no longer live a life
with girls who think they are all that
the girls with cold hearts who put others down
just because they are ugly or fat

Sister and brother I am sorry
some memories were great
unfortunately you didn't know how i feel
but i guess its just fate

You may think i am weak for letting go
but think what you want I don't care
I mean, how can i? beings i am
not really there.

I've held on long enough
and soon i will be gone
and you will find out
and soon be moving on

Remember this is my choice
and now i am no longer sad
i will be watching over you
and so will my Dad

So here's my last breath and my last words
before i die
Don't put others down live YOUR life
I love you all and goodbye.

(c) Copyright : Michelle Cavalier