Im addicted to this deadly game of cat and mouse

It is like a game of cat and mouse
i am chasing death
and death is right behind
take my chances everyday
i take the knife and slide
it slowly across my wrist
pushing with force
it is the best feeling in the world
i love it, i love the pain, the blood
I'm so addicted i do not even
want to hear the word stop
cutting is the only thing i control
and now i control nothing
because i can not stop
my self harm is at a maximum
evil thoughts fill my head
i just want to die
little voices in my head
tell me to cut deeper every time
so maybe just maybe
i will make it out of this life