Loneliness Ends

Lurking in summer’s shadows, ominous thoughts of my life’s end arise
Only I can see what’s coming, my hope for compassion dies.
No one to share this secret with! My loved ones will never know.
Even as I smile and nod, no melancholies show.
Longing for my lover’s closeness, intimacy I’ll never again see
In truth I am a failure – and feel the shame/blame on me.
Never to feel his closeness, my heart’s love will fade away
Ending hope of resurrection for words he can’t/won’t say
Sadness and despair are now the visitors in my life
Soon my world will end for me, and ease my tortured strife.

Every day that passes brings me closer to death’s welcoming door
Neither his love nor understanding can save me any more.
Death will sweetly greet me, offering an end to my lonely pain
So he can go on without me, and live his life freely again.