WILL SHE EVER BE THE MOM I NEED?

I'm always thinking why my mom is never there for me she tells me i can talk to her. how can i talk to her when i already know she wont be there for me with things Ive done. She says if i ever get pregnant and I'm in this house I'll be out of here without her help without her there for me. that hurts me when i think bout it. i can't even see her doing that but she says she will. i know i wouldn't do that to my daughter... ill be there for her stand by her side no matter what. Help her with her child... even help her through problems. ill be her best friend (unlike my mom). I'll tell her she can come to me whenever she needs me she can tell me anything it wont make me mad. with my mom i know whatever i say she will get mad at. when i have kids i don't want them to be afraid of telling me things n asking me things... i just wish my mom was that kind of person i can talk to with anything with out her getting mad at me... i wish i can tell her i lost my virginity.... i wish i can tell her who's my boyfriend n who i like... but i know it wont be true no matter what i know ill be that mom where anyone can talk me about anything....