Falling apart

I wish i was normal again
i wish i could relate
but i made the choice
and now its too late

i have no feel
i have no fear
since i made the choice
to drink some beer

i had a friend
that got me into weed
i knew thats not
what god planned for me

i look back
a long time ago
i always thought
it was time to go

but i didn't listen
to my heart
i tried to fit in
my life has fallin apart

i wish i knew then
what i know now
because i look in a mirror
i ask who when how

i look at my mom
tearing her apart
i start to cry
inside my heart

i ended up worse
i steel for weed
no body trust me
i wish i would just bleed

i started to cut
along thy wrist
i think about it
is it worth the risk

to wasted my life
seeing people cry
what for? over me
i always ask why

i think about my life
what will i do?
i don't understand
why i hate i things i do.

i cut my wrist
one final time
and i realize
I'm about to die

i cut to deep
beneath the skin
i am very scared
deep within

i leave my self
waiting to die
just because
i couldn't handle the cry.

plz comment this because it took a lil while to write.