I'm Lost

Should i, cut out my heart so i don't have to feel
should i close my eyes from this pain that is real
or should end it all
cut my wrist
let me scream, and make a fist

should i pretend to be someone who I'm really not
should i put a gun to my chest and lie, just say i was shot
should i give it all up, even though how hard i have fought

I'm not sure what to do, my mind goes blank
should i lay on the beach and drown on the bank

what should i do, I'm not sure anymore
i finish one problem but open one more
going to bed awake, but waking up sore
realizing i hit the brick post outside the front door

pain doesn't hurt, its only apart of my life
but too much pain, might stop me from growing up to have a wife

whether i should, or i should not, I'm just so lost
I'm not sure to end it, and pay the final cost

i live life, day by day, walking blind on no end
help me up when i have fallen my friend
but its too late, I'm on the floor once again

passed out, as the problems swirl in my head
I'm still breathing I'm alive, but i feel like I'm dead

what should i do, i don't know
I'm lost i don't know where to go

should i just stay here, and wait to be found
should i go out search for home, become home ward bound
should i just leave, and never come back to this ground

i don't know, I'm lost, and right now i don't care
life is hard and then you die...just not fair

*feeling pretty down for some reason, I'm rusty its been a while. sorry. I'm not sure where this came from but, my guess is pain*