Love and Cutters dont go together

I lay here on the bathroom floor
Trying to not have a care in the world

You said if I did it or even tried
It would be hard, but you'd have to say goodbye

You said you'd love me
and with slit wrist you couldn't see

But you don't understand how it is for me
This was my only way out, my only way to see
I cut for so long
But not to do it now, the feeling is so strong

Don't think If I do it I don't love you
Its just when I get this way its something I have to do

Maybe if I cover it up you will not see
And you will still be with me

So to my wrist I take the knife
And pray you don't walk out of my life

I love you baby please believe
And do not weep, do not grieve

I've tried to stop it seems like forever
And I want us to be together
((((days later))))
Dear Diary, today he saw my wrist
And he looked at me with a twist

"If you loved me you wouldn't have done it" he said with a sigh
"And as much as it hurts me I must say goodbye"

I told him I wouldn't do it again and not to leave
But he turned the handle and Me he couldn't believe

I lay ed on the bathroom floor
This time with out a care in the world

Now I have no one what do I do?
And I grabbed the razor blade and did what I always do

I thought of him the whole time
Trying to make him a letter or a rhyme

I told him his goodbye really hurt me
But now I must say my goodbye for ETERNALLY

I finished up the letter
and signed my name and said it was for the better

I lay ed there and finally said "I'll always love you" with my final breath
And holding his picture clutched in my hand ...slowly drifted into death