by SadnesssMadnesss Jul 29, 2005
category :
Sadness, depression /
about depression
But it causes so much pain to the people who love me. The whole school knows about me. And I'm getting harassed and teased everyday. It chases all my boyfriends away. The inspiration of " Finally Giving You Up" and "Shut My Eyes" left me for that. And people are always asking me if I cut myself and I , of course , say no. But I'm sure they know by all the scars. I never told anyone about this, but one day I went to my locker and found a picture of me in a stray jacket and knives stabbed into my body and blood scattered everywhere and kids around me in a circle laughing at me. I don't know who did it. Everybody calls me psycho. Plus, I go to a counselor who has kids popping in and out of her office. So many people are in my business. I regret starting and getting myself addicted. I was so dumb. I wasn't strong enough to handle my problems and talk it over and get it settled. Instead I was selfish and stubborn. |