My Heart Belongs To You

For it is not October
I don't have to mask my feelings
You aren't talking to me
Or my love forever reeling

So I can say what's on my mind
No matter what the cost
Because you won't give me half a chance
To make up for time that's lost

One day you want me with you
But the next day you are gone
How can we reunite the flame
When you are stringing me along

You don't care about me
Despite the words you say
No matter how I reach out to you
You just run away

Forever I thought you'd be there
Like you were before
But now when I reach out to you
My cries you just ignore

Despite the vows I've taken
When our love was torn apart
I closed that chapter of my life
But never gave away my heart

That's what makes this different
Than all the other wedding vows
That people stood up taking
With hearts truly endowed

This marriage that I vowed to
Was just a circumstance
I promised him forever
Even when there was no chance

I crossed my fingers behind my back
When I said the words "I do"
Knowing I'd love you always
No matter I was vowing to

Our wedding was a comic strip
Let me tell you of my story
The best man wanted him to run
Rather than give up all his glory

My groom smoked a little pot
And drank a six-pack of beer
Before he committed to me
And promised to love me through the years

That's what he felt he had to do
Before he committed himself to me
He could not commit with sobriety
To love me endlessly

I walked down the long, cold aisle
Realizing I forgot my slip
A wedding disaster before me
But I did not give a shit

Took a ride in the limo
Drank too much champagne
Poured enough "liquid courage"
To play the wedding game

Kissed on every toast
We were scared to death
Knowing we could never pass
The " I love you forever" test

Experienced our first fight
On the honeymoon
It ended our chance for romance
The beginning our of doom

So you can walk away from me
And label me unfaithful
But until you walk in my shoes
Don't you wave the gavel

I am a good-hearted woman
I am not an evil lady
But I cannot be faithful
To a man who is so shady

I am committed to find love again
Whether it's from you or someone new
I will not spend my entire life
Feeling sad and blue

I asked God for forgiveness
And the strength to walk away
I know he listens to me
And gives me the will today

He knows I cannot live my life
With unhappiness and tears
He will forgive me for my sins
And give me happy years

I pray to him every night
Before I go to bed
To keep my daughter close to me
And to straighten out my head

With the way the world is today
I think he would approve
For me to walk away from
What makes me sad and blue

He wants me to find happiness
He wants me to achieve
He knows I need true love
He knows I do believe

I have faith in God above
To answer all my prayers
And the hope to find true love
And find happiness within my tears

He helps me make decisions
I believe he is fueling all my dreams
Somehow I believe he is responsible for
Bringing you back to me

So please just take my hand
And walk with me again
Under the halo upon me
Protecting us within

Faith sometimes comes from fate
Sometimes it's from above
But regardless of the reasons
I believe we're still in love

So please take a step toward me
And I will do the same
Please let me kiss and make up to you
Let's forget about the blame

Let this be a beginning
That will never end
Let us be forever
lovers and best friends