I Don't Want to Love You

I cannot stand the thought of you
yet thoughts of you consume me entirely
no matter how badly I wish it wasn't true
I still yearn for your arms around me tightly

I wish I could express to you my love
the amazing way you make me feel inside
like I'm as beautiful as a white dove
and I am flying in a perfect blue sky

oh, how I would love to call you mine
the way you make me smile, oh my
how much more time before I walk that line
and reveal the truth I wish so badly was a lie

and then you hugged me goodbye
In your arms, i felt so safe and secure
but I also felt like I was going to die
for another year without you I'd have to endure

I wish so terribly that I didn't love you
but you are still under my skin
and, these memories, I wish would undo
it feels as if these feelings are a sin

love is suppose to be wonderful
and there are times when it is just that
but when you are gone, I'm no longer blissful
and it feels like I am being hit with bat

yet you looked at me with those captivating eyes
and perhaps you could see right through me
perhaps you saw the truth I so horribly despise
and how I really do love you so purely and truly

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