Would You Understand? Part 1

I just can't handle all of this pain. You're the only one who really understands. But if I told you about everything that I hide behind every single one of these tears, would you still look at me the same? Would you tell everyone my secrets or would you keep them to yourself, even if you thought that you should tell someone. Would you lie to me and try to tell me that I'll be alright even if we both know I'm gonna get hurt some day. My life will all be over one day. My pain will keep on coming no matter what I say you and I both know it. I'll never be okay. I'll never be able to forget all of the painful memories. My wounds will never heal. I will always be scared to live my life my way. I'll never forget what I've been put through. I just wish you could help me because I don't know what to do.

written April 8, 2005