Ever feel like you are in a world that you do not belong? Like you aren't there for the same reasons as everyone else? Your parents are split, you don't belong with your mom cause it is bulls*** over there, and you don't belong with your dad because of other reasons, those are less patient, those who fight over more stupid reasons. You don't fight, you don't argue you deal with it. you feel so mad, hopeless even, that there is nothing you can do, you feel it's your fault, but you know that people around you can improve, but they haven't experienced as you have? They don't know what you do? They seem so messed up, you know they are messed up, you are better, but not as good as others....you don't know what to do. Thoughts go through your head...you want to leave this world.....you don't want to be in this world so full of pain and filled with little comfort and so much pain...what does one do? I want to leave, but I don't want pain to be in anyone because of me....what the hell do I do? You don't know what to do, so you live on through the pain, which bottles up, and eventually the end comes, as you knew it would. How do you stop it? How do you change the fate you know will come to you eventually? How do you feel happy in this world you don't belong?
