The Little Girl within Me

I gaze at the blade
I gaze at my wrist
I see all the scars I made from the blade
And all I could do was think about the pain

I closed my eyes
And there I could see the pain
I saw each time I cut
I saw everyone I hurt

I look at the blade
Saw all the dried up blood on it
Saw how much sorrow I’m in
And I wanted it all vanished

I looked at all the pages I wrote on
Saw all the tears I cried
Saw all the blood
And the pain that haunts me

Why do people cut?
It doesn’t help the pain but only for a few
At the end it only hurts more
So why do I keep doing it?

It’s like a never-ending story
The pain it just keeps getting stronger
The heart it just keeps bleeding
And I keep going into the darkness

One day there I was in the light
The next day there I was in the dark
And I haven’t found my way out of it
And the pain it pushes me darker and darker

I feel like a little girl
Lost and alone
Trying to find her way home
But everywhere she looks its not home

Deep inside I am a little girl
Lost and alone
Trying to find the light
But I keep looking in the wrong places.

Maybe someday
The little girl from within me
Will find the way home
And for once in a long time I can smile a true smile

But until then
These cuts will go deeper
This pain will grow
And I will go further into the darkness.