Amen

All the pills I take,
the alcohol I drink,
nothing stops the pain.

I waited forever,
but relief came never,
my salvation never came.

All the hurt I survive,
this isn't the life,
the life i want to live.

I want to live,
or lie in rest,
to feel emotions,
a heartbeat in my chest.

I realize I can't have this,
so in resolution,
I slit my wrists,
pray and say Amen.