November has gone

Set in a trance
From my hopeless eyes
Trying to stare at reality
As all my pain subsides

My life is a bottle
That I have set aside
All my deaths I have wasted
All my dreams that died

I can’t grasp my sanity
Oh “what the hell is wrong?”
“Am I drunk again?”
I can’t feel my arms…

That part didn't rhyme…
Why the hell do I care?
No one ever listens
All they do is stare

I’m not your “freaking” monkey
Yes, I’m a little pissed
You can keep playing your little chime
As I give you a taste of my fist

“So you don’t want trouble?”
“Then shut up, and give me a beer”
That’s all I’m ever good for
That’s why you keep me here

For all to look and laugh
“The punk that couldn’t handle”
All his girls that left
Just waiting for him to die

“Crap”… that didn’t rhyme too.
I don’t give a damn
Want to keep his buzz
As I flip the bird to “Uncle Sam”

Now that part didn’t make sense
But has anything ever really?
“great, now he’s being deep”
I just want someone to hear me

So belligerent
I can’t even speak
Why do I feel so empty?
I just want to get some sleep

“I’m so very tired”
The bottle’s so close to my hand
Why can’t lift my head?
Why can’t I stand?

“I’m so very tired”
Can someone help me up?
My head wants some more to drink
But my body has had enough.

I still can’t make sense
Have I done something wrong?
why can’t I seem to realize?
That my November has gone.

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if your confused about the ending.
My November used to be my greatest month. So many of great things happened to me: my first love, my first kiss, all my achievements happened November. Thats why I call it \"my November.