Faith

Dear Diary,
Could I tell you a secret?
Promise you won’t tell?
Well, my friend
I wasn’t always this way

Remember my beliefs?
That I don’t think there’s a god?
Well you may be amazed
But I used to have faith
I believed there was a God Almighty

I can’t say I was a Catholic
Or even a Christian
I never went to church
And only sometimes prayed
But I believed in a higher being

Sometimes before bed
I got down on my knees
And conversed with God
Asked for happiness for my family
And prayed He bless them all

I didn’t own a Bible
And didn’t believe because my parents said to
I knew only little about Jesus
But when I was young
I truly believed in God

Faith is not everything you know
It is not written in the Bible
It’s not how many people you convert
Or try to preach to
It’s not memorizing the New Testament
It’s not even going to church

Faith is just that
Believing but knowing nothing

And small children are some of the few
That still have faith
And I was once that child

I’ve lost my faith through the years
I learned about God as I grew
And didn’t think it made sense
Maybe something did create the universe
But I don’t believe it’s still around

Don’t ask me how I lost it
I couldn’t tell you what happened
Don’t try to “save” me
I’m fine as I am

I bet you never knew
That I once believed in God
No one really did
I did not flaunt my faith
And I believe
That’s the way it should be