Drops of my blood make a pool
Around my trembling body
On the cold, hard bathroom floor
The cloth next to me, drenched and stained
Red, like the petals of a once beautiful rose
Falling...until it hits rock bottom
All that's left is myself, all alone
Feeling claustrophobic, as if the walls
Are simply breaking down on me
My mind, cluttered with problems
Wants to explode into tiny pieces
So I won't have to deal anymore
I'm drowning in pain, sadness
And no one's come to save me just yet
How long will I have to wait here?
My wrists sting as every second of my life
Just seem to inch on, one by one
With no happy breaks in between
My emotions engulf me like flames
Burns me everytime I try to escape
Though the reality of it is that sometimes
The fire seems better than the reality
Of my life as a living hell, plain and simple
I come out with cuts, scars, all of the above
At times I feel so happy
But then other times, I'm lower than low
Like a hole I dug that I can't climb out of
Then it all gets dark...lonely even
The sky is furious like me
It swallows all light, happiness and disappears
No one can completely understand it all
You can imagine although it doesn't come close
Go through it yourself and see what it's like
The ocean of emotions is hard to swim in
Harder to stay afloat, keep from drowning
But hardest is to try and get out
