Shattered Illusions

This is going to be the hardest poem I've ever had to write
But I know that if I write it, it will have to be tonight
Because I'm thinking of you now, and with you in mind
I think I might actually be able to tell you the truth this time.

So I'll start with I miss you, you've been gone for way too long
But you haven't called and haven't written, so I think I was wrong
I thought that deep down you felt the exact same way about me
But since it's been a month, I guess you don't, obviously.

But even if that's the case, I still need to say what needs to be said
Because ever since you left these thoughts have been in my head
And it's not just that I miss you, there's a lot more to it then that
I'm mad and you haven't called; I didn't know that would hurt so bad.

All this year we've been good friends; I've never met someone like you
You're always there to talk too; you've never failed to help me through
Time and time again you've said that we would be so perfect together
And now might not be the right time, but I'm not going to wait forever.

This friendship that we have, and all the secrets that we've told
Seems to be constantly getting strong, and it's continues to grow
And I know I've told you this before, but I don't think you understood
When I said I was falling in love, I was serious; I've fallen for good.

Yes, you have a girlfriend, and I love my boyfriend with all my heart
But it seems to me that this distance is going to tear me apart
I haven't heard your voice and I think it might just drive me insane
I'm not used to missing you this much; but it hurts to say your name.

From the lack of communication, and since you haven't called
I've come to the conclusion that you never felt this way at all
But that's okay; I expected that, I knew it was too good to be true
Even still, you know I'll wait; I've always been waiting for you.

You're the one who got away, the one I knew I couldn't have
And it hurts to think we've lost everything we never had
But I can't see how you could feel the way I do right now
And not even pick up a phone, or contact me somehow.

So with this one last poem I'll let you know everything I feel
And just for the record, every single word I wrote was real
Our friendship may still live on, or it might just fade away
But I guess what I want to say is I'll love you either way.