Losing And Letting

I'm losing myself
I'm losing my truth
I'm losing my true ways
over you
I'm letting you hurt me
And I'm letting you take control
Because without you,
I am alone
You're all I have
So I lose and I let
As I let, I lose
And it's not supposed to be worth it
I should find a way out
But I choose not to
I choose this
Because I'm alone unless I do
And I can't take being alone
I'm only 17, and I'm losing everything
For this:
No independence
And no more normality
I'm being controlled
Seduced and confused
Brainwashed and redone
And I chose it
This is it
This is my life
Not my dream,
just my life
©Ashley