Wat it would of been

I TRY TO LAUGH BUT CRY INSTEAD,
I TRY TO STOP THE VOICES IN MY HEAD,
I STUFF MYSELF WITH DRUGS,
BUT THE THUDS,THE THUDS,
THEY JUST DON'T GO AWAY,

I THINK OF WHAT IT COULD OF BEEN,
WHEN U WERE SEVENTEEN,
IF U HAD BUT ME IN 2 CARE,
NO LOVE NO HUGS TO SPARE,
I WOULDN'T OF CAUSED U SO MUCH GRIEF,
AND MADE U SO FRAGILE.
LIKE A AUTUMN LEAF,IN THE HOT SUMMER SUN,

NOW I REALLY DO REALIZE WAT I HAVE DONE,
RUINED SO MANY LIVES,
I HAVE NO FAMILY LEFT,
WHATEVER I SAY WONT CHANGE YOUR MIND,
ILL BE KIND.
I WONT ARGUE, I WONT SHOUT,I WONT SCREAM,
I WILL JUST BE ME

BUT WENT I AM GONE U CANT BLAME ME FOR ANYTHING,
BECAUSE I'M NOT THERE TO CAUSE ANYTHING,ANY AUGMENTS IT ISN'T MY FAULT,
SO I AM DIVING IN TO THE POOL OF NOTHING,
THINKING OF THIS WHILE I'M DIEING,
DRIFTING FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY,
BUT I LOVE YOU MUMMY ANYWAY