Fixed Goodbye

You made me broken promises
And told me many lies
And every time you hurt me
Something inside me died

You were slowly killing me
And as much as I didn't want to
I had to end the insults
That were always exceeding from you

You would tell me things
I didn't want to know
I'm a lot less innocent thanks to you
And I'm sure it shows

I had thoughts of hurting myself
Not normal thoughts for me
The person I was slowly becoming
Is not who I wanted to be

You've made me second guess myself
I've lost a river of tears
And to win yourself some sympathy
You played upon my fears

I knew all along what was happening
I'm not as dumb as you think
But I sacrificed my well being and faith
To make sure you didn't sink

And so many chances were given
Way too many, I'm sure
You always said you were sorry
But I know you never were

I'm just another girl to you
And that's ok, I guess
But if you think I have failed
You're wrong, I've passed the test

I've sinned for you
And you have hurt me so
And I forgive you for everything
But it's over, that you know

I can't keep on like this
Hurting myself for you
Shakespeare wasn't kidding:
"To thine ownself be true."

I've tried and tried and tried
And you don't care to try
So even though I don't want to
I have to say goodbye

Don't go and cry over this
Don't say you'll commit
I won't go on a guilt trip
So just forget about it

I'll still listen if you want
But it'll never be the same
Because it's over between us
You won't hurt me again

I was a good friend to you
I never left your side, you see
I always cared for you
But you always hurt me

So if you want me to feel guilt
Too bad, you won't succeed
Because I know who I am
And I won't again hurt me

You always complained
Told your stories so sad
Sucked me into your grasp
When it wasn't really that bad

You don't even know half of
What all your friends have been through
Because in every conversation
The subject turns to you

You don't know how bad it is
You have it good, my friend
Your parents care and love you
And are there until the end

They buy you food
You have never been neglected
You've had a lot of things
Pain not resurrected

What happened to you was sad
Yes, it was, we know
But you have help and love
Places where you can go

Sorry it turned out like this
But please, just walk away
You told me to leave many times
And yet I continued to stay

Now you want me to stay again
And I just can't this time
I can live without you
I'll move on and be fine

I don't need you or anyone
All I need is God in Heaven
And I put Him first before you
For all that he has given

So go ahead and call me names
Cry and yell and whine
But I can't afford my life
It's over this time

I'll keep on caring
You have a place in my heart
But to fix me it has to be broken
So I tear us apart

This is my last tear
The last time for you I'll cry
I'm sorry it's over, dear
Here's my fixed goodbye.

**You know who you are, and I'm so sorry it ended like this. Don't cut or commit over me, I'm just a girl. You have many others to lean on. Please don't make me feel guilty or anything... I've had enough of that. I forgive you for everything, but I can't handle it anymore. I want to be me... not the me I was becoming. I'm sorry again.**

Car