As I climb into bed on this fairest of nights
I will smile because again I have lied
Holding dearly in my arms skittles and ice cream
I make sure the pills and my razor are also by my side
Tonight I will sleep soundly
No nightmares, of that I am sure
Damn I took all the pills
But then I smile because I have more
Slowly the ritual begins for me
As I sit there in my bed
The skittles I put under my pillow
And then lay down my head
I take the ice cream
But only one big bite
Then take the razor
A cut for every fight
Smiling I'm happy,
Although I feel the pain
I swallow three pills
And I'm at it again
I have to get down carefully
So all the cuts wont go off and bleed
I put the ice cream away
And start to read
I'm tired now, after all Ive done
My wounds are starting to get sore
It take some pills, ate all the skittles
Take the blade and cut some more
If only I had the vodka
But i know the bottle is too big
Then I start to remember
And I think of that filthy pig
I'm running out of room where I can hide them
But I keep cutting myself anyway
Punishment this is, but ill never cry
i know how to make the scars go away
And now I'm done, not too bloody
I hear them scream, but I don’t care for the fight
I climb out of bed, I still have my smile
Kiss them both and say “goodnightâ€
