Always never there

ALWAYS NEVER THERE

My life is a prison
Oh God please let me out
There's no one to listen
To hear me when I shout
I climb these walls of insanity
I ride these waves of despair
If I fall it doesn't matter
Because there's no one there to care
Now, I finally get it
Now, I finally see
That you were always never there for me
Whenever I was scared
You lied because you never really cared
As I write this ink filled page
I realize you've locked me in a pain filled cage
I guess if I've learned anything it's that your not my dad, you're not even my friend
Because a friend will stick with you until the bitter end
A friend will help you out
They will listen to you even if you shout
I shouldn't just sit here and pout
I should get up and shout
But as I yell out
This deadly shout
I feel much doubt
Because i have much fear
that you will always never be here
To catch my falling tears
To fight away my fears
You say your always there for me
But as you see I don't agree
I hope you get it
I hope you see
That because of you
I'm trapped inside of me
you wont ever read this until i die,
you'll read this, shake you're head and let out a sigh
you wont believe it, you'll think its a lie
but look back on my childhood and then try to deny
you'll look back at this and begin to cry
you'll think to yourself "how could I"
i hope this letter helps you to better understand
how to be a dad...more less, how to be a man