Dead

Dead, thats what i wish i was
dead, thats how i feel right now
dead, thats what i really want to be
dead, no one deserves it more than me

i just want to leave
i can't stand this anymore
i hate my life
and i hate myself
for reason that go unsaid

dead, please let me go lord
dead, i never hated you
dead, i worshiped you once God
dead, now that is what you are to me

i hate you lord,
for all the homeless people out there
i hate you lord,
for all the starving children out there
i hate you lord,
for all the people you let get raped
i hate you lord,
for all the missing people that still have yet to be found
i hate you lord,
i really do

dead, i don't even want to know
dead, i don't even want to hear
dead, please don't let me see
dead, all the victims that suffer
BUT YOU STILL MAKE THEM LIVE

dead, you are as dead to me God,
as i am to myself
and i hate me, through and through
i have nothing left
nothing worth living for
i want to feed the starving and i want to accommodate the homeless
i want to buy a flower to put on every single grave
i want to get a rope
and join the hanging slowly brigade
dead, lord, now i am dead too
and this is all because of you.

(C) Lucy Green

*i do believe in God, i am just going through a hard time right now and God just hasn't been there for me, it's hard, i believe in him, but i don't care for him so much anymore...it's a hard feeling to describe...sorry*