Reality is evil

Trying so hard just to clear my head
trying so hard to forget what i dread
trying so hard to be someone I'm not
trying so hard to block out all this rot

i just want to sleep
I'm going to climb this mountain
no matter how steep
and at there top will sit a fountain
one that will grant me just one wish

i wish to be happy
thats all i ask
i wish to feel a genuine smile
and not a smile of hidden secrets
i want this world to let me go
i want to die, painfully and slow

I can't climb this mountain
there isn't a fountain
I don't have one wish
and i will never be happy

reality is evil
i can't do this on my own
just an ounce of support
would help me through this cyclone
twisted feelings and tortured emotions
God, i hate you, i don't have a religion!

(C) Lucy Green

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