God knows

I've been hoping for so long,
I am not always in the wrong,
Bleeding heart,
Holding fear,
God knows why I cry these tears,

I've been dreaming for a while,
That I could just again smile,
Cutting pain,
Wilting dream,
God knows at night I scream,

I've let go,
Of the love I used to know,
Tearing away,
On the edge,
God knows my secret pledge,

I've wanted more than this,
I am not in long life bliss,
Disintergrating,
Falling away,
God knows I'm only just making it through each day