Deep Dreams

I cannot stay here,
I cannot leave.
Forever imprisoned,
I am deceived.
Bleeding souls of hatred,
Are kept from their graves.
I would do more,
Just to be saved.
And I sit here today,
Although I'm alone.
I dream of the blue sky,
And joy carved in a stone.
But these are just dreams,
I wish could be real.
Because in reality,
I cannot feel.
These drugs do not work,
Nor do your lies.
Don't tell me I'm fine,
When everyday I cry.
I used to believe in,
I used to amuse.
But these are the moments,
That get abused.
I sure would smile,
But I don't care.
Why won't you help me?
Why must you stare?
Can't you see that I'm blinded,
Beneath all these dreams.
I'm drifted away,
As like it seems.
Dreams can be happy,
Dreams can be sad.
They could be good,
They could be bad.
An epiphany shames me,
I cannot stand.
I am consumed,
In my own wasted land.