I am no one special
none other than a 16 year girl who's life is confusion
which is made to look like an illusion
why cant people see?
how come this happens to me?
noone knows how sad i am inside
its something that i always try to hide
from all the hurt i have experienced
it just don't make no sense
i try to have good relationship with my father
but now the way i look at it
i just don't bother
i try to have relationships with guys
but now theres so many fears
because I'm the one that ends up with the tears
i go through so much shit in this house and with this family i don't know how i take
everything that goes on and everything that happens
it just makes me wanna take something and break it
I'm so mad right now
and if u were one of my friends and knew me u would think to yourself how?
because im full of joy and laughter
but to me
none of that shit matters
its just a front
to cover up how i really feel
because i hate this hater-nation
that needs motivation of a city called ashtabula
i would do anything i be somewhere better right now
like with the real people that love me
the real people that matter
with my real Ni99@$ within
Terence, jasmine, & tyshuane!
