With a heavy heart, I sigh
And look up to the sky
An overwhelming sense of guilt traps me
Holding me down
It’s the guilt of loving
The guilt of hurting
The guilt of not being there
The guilt of staying
The guilt of telling
The guilt of keeping it inside
The guilt of believing in you, loving you
And the guilt of not trusting you
I’m stuck inside a world of fear,
A world of hate
And anger
A world that holds me back
That won’t let me live
That pushes everything at me at once
Making it so I can’t breathe
I need something
Someone
I need help
Help I can’t ask for
Help I can’t get
Help I’m searching for
But don’t know where to look
It eats me up inside
Being here alone in a room full of people
Trust is no where to be found
Though I wish I could let you in
Let you see me
Who I really am
And who I want to be
I’m learning to trust
Slowly
But I’m getting there
Just be patient with me
Trust that I’ll get there some day
My heart will get there one day
I just hope you’re still there
Waiting for me
My world gets a little brighter when I see you
Talk to you
You help me without knowing it
You’re unlike any other
And you make my life happier
There aren’t many I can say that about
There aren’t many that I feel could be there
There aren’t many in my life that do what you do
Help me without meaning to
Helping me at all
Giving me hope
And something to look forward to
Promises are hard to keep
Fragile like a collection of fine china
But still we make them
Once broken
Trust is gone
And my collection has run out
I’m slowly trying to build it back up
And with you
I might just get it back
