Numb little Girl

She walks down every single hall
Every single day
She tries to find a purpose
in her crashed world
She tries to be normal
She looks for someone who cares
She knows she is nothing but a let down
who can't even impress her parents
Just once in her life she wants to see herself
sparkle in her lovers eyes
She dreams of being held
dreams of being envied
Hopes, are nothing but let downs to her
Even when she wants to let go
Something holds this poor wishful thinker back
Even the thought of falling in love keeps her alive
but,night after night she grows a bit more lonely, even more bitter
...desperate to let go, find a better light
but the heavens wont open up to her, if she takes her own life
This is where she looses her faith
asking herself,"why would, "a god" want me in so much pain."
Now she cuts a bit deeper the blood drains out her life finally comes to a screaming halt
She cant wait for LOVE anymore
For she has lost all hope of love
In fact she lost herself looking for love
...This poor girl is so ready to slip away form a life she has grown to hate
Something pulls her back to life, to be the girl who she has made herself despise
She looks up to a mirror and stops
dead in her tracts
because I realized this girl, hater
of love, is what i have become