Daddy Dear

I still miss you, my Daddy so dear
I wish you were still with me, I wish you were here
But you're not, you left me a long time ago
And why you left your girl, I may never know.

Did you not love me, was I not good enough?
I'm sorry I didn't clean up all my stuff
And that I made you and mommy argue
But didn't you know, I still loved you?

I remember how you used to read to me
I loved your voice, it sounded so gently
And I remember all the piggy-backs you gave
And I loved your cooking, that was my fav

But you don't cook for me, don't read to me
You're far away, and always will be
Don't you like seeing me Dadddy, dear?
I guess not, and that's why you're not here

Sometimes I want to kill you for all the pain
And I scream and hit, but it's all in vain
Because you don't hear it, don't feel it
You don't know a thing about me, you don't know shit!

You don't know how I still hurt, how I always will
You don't know how I long to just take a pill
And end all the sorrow that you carved in me
Maybe I should, maybe then you'll be sorry.....