My Purpose in Life

My purpose in life
Why am I here
What is my purpose
If I just died
Would everything be alright

I feel alone in a crowded room
Fearful every waking moment
I can't sort out my feelings
No matter how hard I try

It's all just confusing letters
Making no sense at all
Will the pain ever cease?
Or ever go away

People think I’m depressed
Or that I’m okay
That's how well
I hide my pain

How can you look into my eyes
Without seeing the darknessIt's like the emptiness of space
Eating me up from the inside

What would you do?
How would you handle the trauma
Could you handle it
And still live on happily?

Sorry I had to leave
No matter where I go
I just submit to more
This was the only way

I thought it through
And finally decided
It's better this way
It will be my saving grace

The only way you'll ever know
How I ever felt
Is by reading this poem
And know me all my life

By knowing my every move and thought
By having fun, through the anger and the fears
Through the good times
And the bad

I’m truly sorry
How you found me
Lying in a pool of blood
On the kitchen floor

You'll never know why I died
Because of all the pain I hide
It was just to much for me
And in the end I just let go

So now I say good bye
To all who I knew
You may have loved me untruthfully
But I’m safe in my final resting place