Fears

Each and every day
My fears
Big and small
Control my life
They take me away
From the life
I’d love to live
I’m too cautious and
Careful
Don’t do that
Or say that word
Judgment is here
Don’t love him
You’ll break his heart
Don’t go there
They won’t like you
Be perfect or you’ll let your mom down
A daddy’s girl
Only to learn
From his mistakes
Sister’s best friend
To see her miserable life;
Don’t end up like her

I try my best
Yet still I struggle
The scars
They’re there
That’s the physical proof
Personal proof
My broken heart
My shattered soul

I fear
I’ll lose David
To another girl
Or fear
I’ll break his heart
The possibility
Is always there
I fear
That my dreams and
Wishes
Won’t come true
I wish
That he’ll be mine
Forever
Til the day I die
I fear
That something
Will tear us apart

These aren’t my biggest fears
No
My biggest fear
Is far beyond
Any fear
I’ve ever known
My biggest fear
Is that I don’t
Try hard enough
Here
And I won’t make it
To that heavenly place
There
My biggest fear
Is that I won’t
Know the Lord and
Won’t spend eternity
In worship and
Prayer
And that I won’t
Meet David
There