Suicide letter #2

~i know its long but please read it would mean a lot to me~

theres another suicide letter that i wrote that is much better and much shorter you can read that one to if you want if just called suicide letter.....go to that search poem place you know and youll find it....

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I say my last goodbyes
as i shut my sorrowful eyes
i rap my bloody arms around my chest
go under the water and decide that this is for the best

Mother-
you razed me from the time i was born
you told me i was beautiful you promised me and swore
but all i could do was scorn at your words that were just trying to help
"what can i do" weeping you'd say
as I'd shut my eyes and pretend to pray
ignoring you in every way
your face would shatter
your heart battered
as i pretended that this just didn't matter
you tried to help mom
you tried to help so much
but i ignored it
and I'm sorry for that
I'm sorry i made you so sad
please dismiss this now
i know that theres some way some how
that you can bury this body my hear and soul
to make you happy that is the tole
mom i love you

father-
you were always the funniest man alive
make me laugh all the time
your jokes always repetitive
that one reason that make me live...
...for as long as i did
but now i must say my last goodbyes
please don't have any sighs
I'm just a child
just a child
I'll miss you so much dad
i just want to give you one last hug so bad
but i think you might figure it out then
send me away to the hospital
and dad i need this
you don't understand
but i need this
i love you

sister-
i think we've become much closer over this past year
hugging more helping each other whenever one sheds a tear
but Brittany this is when we have to say our last goodbyes
if your crying please stop your cries
I'm only a girl
just a girl
you were such a good sister even a friend
you always had a helping hand to lend
and i know sometimes we could get angry and we could fight
but i could always forgive you
and you could always forgive me
that was a definite not a might
Brittany i love you

brother-
i know i haven't talked to you
barely at all
you seemed scary to me broad and tall
but it was just your mind not your body that was so big
Shea already i can tell in my poem i get slight afraid of you
but the truth i love you
you mean more to me then anything
when i hear thing that you do i wish i could help
i wish i could be there and stick you under my belt
teach you a few things
but i didn't know how to teach
please think, take your hand and reach
because someone will grab it
do it gently and kindly
and someone will be there to help
because so many people care about you
i know they do
Shea i dint know i ever told you this
but i really do love you

so i will lie in the water
blood pouring from my wrist
knowing that soon i will be put on the suicide list
drowning in this crimson world
open eyes
ill start to hurl
turn back over
and back into the water
drowning in this crimson world

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