I wonder what it's like to be completely emotionless,
numb, stripped clean, naked to the bone,
would i mourn or rejoice?
would i miss the terrible ongoing pain of everything going wrong?
the blade dragging from point A to point B?
I wonder, would i miss that first kiss?
the breathlessness the warming tingling from head to toe?
would i miss the happiness of the world
a golden liquid turning me to a sparkling sun
a potion so hard to lay a finger on these days...
I wonder, would I miss the salty ocean breeze on my face?
just more memories bubbling to the surface
would i miss the diving passion and lust for you?
would i miss the rock bottom skin searing feeling of depression?
or the pleasure in knowing I have won a long fought over battle?
would i miss you or me?
or would i not even remember...
for apathy means no feeling at all
so i wonder if life was worth it
worth it all to feel nothing in the end
love is possible and pain is real
black too white
resistance is for those who are weak minded
but i still sit here and wonder
would i miss being me?
or enjoy the seen through feeling?
or would i not even think at all?
