What to do

I can't help but wonder
what goes through the mind
of a person who has everything
but who cannot seem to find

something that makes her happy
a constant opposed to change
as soon as she gets close to something
her life gets re-arranged

it's not as if it's her fault
I've seen she's done nothing wrong
and now afraid to hurt again
she realizes it's been her all along

she's proud of the scars
decorating her wrists
but she doesn't know I blame myself
I could have stopped this

so I am ashamed
every time that she does it
my eyes fill with tears
but the feeling.. she loves it

she tries to explain
but her story gets old
"I can justify it Katie..
it was the only pain I could control"